math is cold, math is all

it's all just hypocrisy, but you don't understand. don't listen because what i'm saying can't be done in sentence. i'll take it all in but it won't change me, but this whole thing is always changing! I lie it will and has changed me. What does it all mean, all this shit i've seen? is it all a sign i should be more like you? Only smashers and smashees. The coveted third way doesn't seem to be working, Bill. I am wrong though, i am more like you than i think and i covet you and i patronize you. But what does it all matter anyways? 6 billion souls ready to be coerced into my advice and vice, it's all just reinvent somewhere else. Plant the fucking home grown franchise then brood out when things go awry. There's a reason why i am the way i am, olive. It's because i'm wrong.
I don't know how i plan to escape with my teeth when i'm running through the very same corrupt system as everyone else. all just some hedonistic fuck and suck fest until we're all gone and whatever God is looking down at us not in disgust, but laughing. laughing at us all! Maybe he knows that we are all liars, committing the prettiest of lies to ourselves.
i just want to scream. It doesn't even matter! i am strength, nothing i see no matter how black or evil will change me. i am stronger than that, i am against it all. i am anti-strength. anti-hero. No brooding about, no guidance, just plain white light and greyscale walls. Just the same old circus womb shiting out the same people without guidance or purpose. When push comes to shove, everyone gets out except me. But this time no one gets out alive. You'll take me with you, be it by force or not.
How can i type rage? only in this pure world: ambition.

it doesn't have to be like that, Mike. That's all anyone ever had to say.

brought down a multi-billion dollar corporation, rather uneventful day

Oh yes friends! no, this isn't a joke or me being over-dramatic. MCI is leaving Nanaimo as of June 10. pwned fuckers! seriously, get your shit and get the fuck out. There doing this pretty much because it costs literally 4 dollars canadian per hour to pay people in the phillipines, and im guessing their commission plan works out to 120% to close rate or higher gets a bale of rice and some sake.
If you follow business news (riveting stuff) you probably know mci was bought out by verizon, which is pretty much the main reason this is happening. Funny story, i was reading the paper a couple months ago at work and i stumbled upon a headline about the merger:
Verizon buy-out of MCI analysts predict 2500 layoffs
i showed it to my supervisor, who just told me it was nothing at all and not to be worried, it would be the American centres. He got TOLD. No one else even noticed the article.
In secret, a high level staff member told me that we were taking too few calls and making too much commission, which has pretty much been my business strategy for the last few months. So in effect, i took out a multi-billion dollar corporation.
Immediately after the news i went to buck or two and bought a huge notepad. I'm going to have free long distance calling for LIFE, and anyone else who might want that, IM me and tell me how much your willing to pay. Don't call me cheap, might not have a (good paying) job anymore, see next paragraph.
So we are all getting transferred to T-mobile rather than just laid off. No one really knows what the schedules/calls/commission will be like, but i'm going to make another educated guess: SHITE. if that's the case, i'm out like a fat kid in dodgeball.

준비되어 있는 꾸준한 간다!

i have no idea what to type. I wonder if there are universal truths, if the only constant really is change and somewhere somehow the speed of light is just a little late for dinner.
if life is adaptation, instinct is vincibility.
Sometimes i wish i could just give it all away, all my luck and energy. I wish i could work towards something better, and for that give my life, my soul, my time to humanity and never look backwards.
Natives believe every time you take a photograph of a person, you take a piece of their soul. This is not entirely untrue from a logical perspective. That photograph will exist longer than the person, will instill a feeling or a thought in someone else, and will parlay the persons' memory to a new world. This is the soul never leaving this world, and immortality. this is also the problem with immortality, despite our gravest desires for it, we all know it's inherently wrong to the universe. A rock dropped from a thousand feet high has more life than you or, if life is simply energy. If not, if there is a soul, another parallel universe where superior sentinence is all that matters for entry, our souls will be scattered into pourly composed pictures in little yellow books at mother's. Hold my soul, hide it from the flash.

"Progress isn't made by early risers. It's made by lazy men trying to find easier ways to do something."

you'll be living in a getaway van in the middle of a corn field and you'll look back and realize how you never got away from anything. fate seems to have slapped me in the face today, although it turned me on. Usually those slaps just hurt. Maybe a trick, haven't decided. But some day, some day you'll wake up from a husk poking at your ear and bugs crawling through the whole in your volkswagen and you'll know all is not well in the universe, and it's entirely your fault.